Mom Visit and Motherhood

My mom came to visit last week. We had so much fun!! We sewed, ate delicious food, and looked at baby clothes! At the end of the week we realized we hadn't taken a single picture (I blame this on not having an iPhone (if you see Phil tell him I need one)) so we had Phil take this one the night before she left. I was really sad when she left. I have never cried so hard over her leaving. I think this happened for a couple reasons: 1) I have never lived so far away from her (except for my semester abroad), and 2) next time she comes it will be to help with the baby, which means I have to have a baby first, the thought of which still really scares me (maybe I shouldn't have watched Call the Midwife...).

Lately I have been thinking a lot about becoming a mother (duh). As I have researched stuff to register for and thought about names I feel so unprepared for this. But then Mother's Day happened and the talks and lessons at church were about the importance of righteous women. And the children sang lovely songs that made me cry. And I watched this video (which also made me cry, I have been admitting to crying way too much in this blog post):

http://www.mormonchannel.org/faith-and-family?v=2360101824001#.UYxQwgW6WIA.facebook

And after thinking about all of this, I feel so prepared spiritually for this to happen in my life. This is what I have always wanted. I know I have SO much to learn. But I am so excited to learn it. And I am thankful to have such a genuinely good husband by my side in this adventure of parenthood. 

I love looking in the closet and seeing little baby clothes hanging up. I love hearing his heart beat at my appointments. I love feeling the little kicks all day long. I love my bump and most of all I love the baby inside that makes it stick out a little more every day.